Well, the State of My Home has recovered from last week's "depression," but I remain skeptical. However, I'm not sure if it's entirely skepticism or this subconscious resistance to positive change. The State of My Mind remains...? Confused. Cynical. Angry. Sad. Hurt. Pretty much anything short of average.
My friends would say that I don't have it so bad, but I believe in the following, "No one has walked a day in your shoes." It's not so much that I hate my wife, I don't. It's just that something "broke" inside my husband persona. I can't find myself to trust or love her like I used to. Perhaps that may melt away, but I will then question the authenticity and search my soul should it happen.
I don't wish to remain in this limbo. My wife and I will begin marriage counseling soon. We'll see how far that takes us. Right now, there are forces beyond my immediate control that keeps us together. Question is, is it the "dark side" or...something else?
"Wheresoever you go, go with all your heart." ~ C.
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